Well some of my closest friends know what I have been going through for the past 4 weeks. I mean this sucks, to put it on this blog. And no, I am not whining anymore. Its over!

I just took some time yesterday analyzed my behavior, I was astonished to find I was acting just like the guys who I despise. Maybe I was easily blown by the events, and didn’t count on my strength to wither it away. But the distress just came in and in and was shaking the inner me. I don’t where I was for that moment of 4 weeks. I suddenly realized I was becoming a weak arse mofo, I thought everyone was against me. Some things so trivial were being blown out of proportion by me. I guess the whole concept of me being self involved took effect. Truth be told, the recent emotional meltdown was not experienced by me ever. To a certain extent, I am the one to be blamed for this whole satire. But I realized in the end, the joke’s on me, and my ego took a hit. Yeah I never knew I had a Big Ego, but I guess I turned out to be the proverbial pigs.

So in this whole mess which I created, I have understood one thing and through this amazing friend who I befriended recently. She told me this one sweet line “Get Your Ass Off, Start Moving”. She made me realize what a sorry figure I am becoming, she said that reason I acted like this, is because I couldn’t imagine this was coming. And since it came, my pride took a hit as I felt I wasn’t given importance. :). Well I told her I know you said something so bitter, although I know your right, its tough to swallow. She said “Sach Ka Saamna”

Cause of the above I was getting stuck in the past and wasn’t accepting the present. This made me a total woosy who whined like no one’s business. So before I fell more in the dumps, I had to pick myself up. I decided to forgive myself and hope that I have been forgiven for everything else I have done. I decided I had to start smiling and be myself the cheery PJ cracking fool that I am. And wallah, I wake with a smile on my face and it stays with me till the time I am sleeping now. I have no clue what the future holds for me, but I know my friend who is reading knows what I will be doing “Looking Straight and Going Forward!”

Thanks to all my friends who helped through this. Especially one Brother (Lucky Boy) from my Brotherhood and my Orlem Chick! But Most Of All Jonny Boy I know your reading this, Thanks! You Brought Me Back!